Moving On ...

For the past few years, I was holding on to what "might" happen. I wasnt ready to move on and I wanted what was before. I wanted my life back as I knew it! I didnt want to face anything new. (Now, to give myself a break, I was also not emotionally ready to begin something new either.).I had my life all planned out, and being a single mom was not in those plans. I was going to be a mom and wife for the rest of my days. There was nothing wrong with those plans and goals, but obviously, there was a change and now I need to think beyond all that.

So, I am taking steps to moving forward... (and it feels great!) I have applied to go back to school and it is scarey but exciting all at the same time! I had no idea what the process would all entail and it has been ( umm.. approx 19 years ) a long time since I have been in school.
I had to track down transcripts, proof of marital status, financial records etc etc .. find three people who would give a very honest reference and most importantly, pray continously about whether Father wants me to attend this particular school or not. This has been really good for me to do this and to see that I can move on - everything will be ok.

I only want to go to school if it is what Father wants for me - so please continue to pray for me as I seek His will on all of this. There is a good chance that I will hear this week if I was accepted or not, but it is looking good so far. Now we just need to wait on the "financial" stuff to be figured out. But this I know, if Father wants me to go to school, He is going to provide and work out all the details!!

Moving on is scarey stuff, letting go of the familiar is a little tough, but it is how you press on as well. God has exciting things ahead and He promises to rebuild and restore. How can we experience all that if we are still holding back and walking out of fear instead of faith?

Now, Jackie needs to daily remind herself that I am not to be doing this in my own "Jackie strength" but with Jesus - but, that's another day's blog ... Til next time, Jackie