Monday, April 7, 2014

To clamor or not to clamor - that is the question


A few words keep going around in my head this morning since I posted my last post on God’s love. The words are Complacent; Clamor and as a result of looking up clamor; I was led to look up the meaning of vehement. Let me first define the words then attempt to tie them together to express my thought.

Complacent: to be pleased, especially with oneself or one’s merit and/or situation; self-satisfied. Synonyms: smug, unbothered, untroubled.

Clamor: a loud uproar; a vehement expression of desire or dissatisfaction; to drive, force, influence

Vehement: zealous, impassioned; strongly emotional, intense or passionate; marked by great energy or exertion; strenuous

 

Okay, so how does one rest in knowing that “He who began a good work in me will complete it” and yet not become complacent? I never want to be satisfied and think that I know that I know everything about God. And yet, by my last post you have seen by now that I sometimes still doubt;  I do not claim to know; but I do need to rest and be assured. To hunger and thirst – seems to me to be actions – verbs.

We can know His love; I do believe that is possible; I just haven’t totally arrived there yet. But should be still clamor to know more of it and to know Him more intimately?

Someone said to me that I should clamor to know Him; to clamor for a bigger truer vision of God. How does one force it? What is my part to do and what is my part to rest in? I cant think that its my right to ask Him for more; to show me more – for what else can we ask Him to do? Really!! But at the same time, I want to know Him, I want to trust Him , I want to do HIS kingdom things and to not settle or less than His will.

This  leaves us asking, do I demand and fast; or do I seek first His kingdom and keep walking and talking with Him and then everything else falls in line?

We have to ask ourselves as well:  Do I truly want Him and His will because that is all that I desire? Or is it because I know that nothing else really satisfies and there is no point in striving for anything less?

Welcome to my wondering thoughts … That’s all for now.

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