Funny The "Nightmares" We Write ...

Please forgive the many posts this week, there is no doubt that they will begin to be less frequent as the "newness" of this all fades.

Last night I asked Father to please wake me on mornings that the goal is to go to Curves; to remind me why I am getting up that extra hour earlier; and to please speak truth into the many doubts and fears that were looming.
This morning not only was I awake early; but much earlier than the alarm. I stepped outside to watch the beautiful huge snowflakes fall; and quietly I am sure I heard "see daughter, you are unique just like them".

As I drove to Curves, I began to write "the nightmare". I know that you know exactly what I mean. This is when we walk out a situation with the very worst ending possible. In fact, by the time I got to Curves I had envisioned a machine I was working on breaking down and then me dying from a heartattack ( I know, how pathetic is that). The only good thing that came from that, was the ending could only have gotten better from what I had imagined :)

I was scared to step on the scale, it had been since the end of October since I last did; and while I was getting on the scale, Father gently poked me to go ahead and get measured as well. I sucked in my breath and whispered to the lovely staff member, "would you mind taking the time to do a measure?". The little girl of a whole size 4 gladly agreed and there I went, ready to die of humiliation. After it was all said and done, I looked at the chart from October and surprisingly I saw that I had lost inches and 4 pounds. Well, what was all hat fretting about?

I whispered a thank you to Jesus, and as I began the warm up stretches, He whispered back, "what if you would have gained 4lbs since last time, would you still be thanking me for being part of this? Would you still be willing to post the results on the blog?" I promised to be transparent, but yes, He is right. It is way easier to be honest when the results are what we had hoped for; (and there is now shame linked to those results).

Won't you please pray that we will be honest and transparent with each other with our struggles? That we strive not for the praises of man, but yet we know how to love each other. To build one another up, and yet, know when to speak truth as well.

Father thank you that you are always reminding us of the truth. Thank you that you are in us and we are in you - safe and secure no matter what! I thank you that you understand us, and you know everything about us and love us still! Continue your work within us, for we know that you are doing a good thing in each of us and will complete it in your time! Amen.

That's all for now, Til next time ...

In Him

Jacqueline