I'll Bring You More Than a Song ...

Once again, I have learned a lesson and am so thankful to how Father speaks to me.

It was my turn to take part on the worship team at church; and this time I was going to sing not play keyboard. I had been fighting a bad cold for several days, and in fact Mon.,Tues.,and Wed I hardly had a voice at all. I cancelled most of my appointments for a couple days and stayed quiet (well as quiet as one can be while barking loudly in a cough).

Lately, I have been wondering where I fit within our little church. The role where I used to be involved, has been filled with staff, and the role where I had been asked to consider leading in, doesnt work well with my other ministry responsibilities at work. So, this fall I have been slowly working my way back into the worship team. I walked forward slowly, with no committment, as I continued to seek Father and ask Him if this is what He wanted, or do I continue to just rest and wait to hear further "direction".

I had been so wrapped up in doing things "right" that I have been missing what it was really about. So, Thursday morning I was praying and I asked Father to show me clearly if He wanted me to be part of this week's team. (Up until then, I had no voice to contribute). By the end of Thursday at work, I had felt that I should go to practice regardless; (as I could offer to play keyboard if I had no voice and if that was a need).

I get to practice and I had a singing voice!! It was close to normal - totally amazing! I still coughed in between songs, but my voice was back. And while that was pretty cool to experienc, the best part was to come later in the practice.

Our worship pastor asked if I would like to lead "The Heart of Worship" or perhaps better known to you as "After the Music Fades".

When I started singing, immediately my heart began to beat faster and faster. As I was singing I realized that this song was exactly what I needed to sing. Not just to sing, but to hear, to sing and to confess.

I had allowed pleasing people, inner voices, pride to get in the way. Essentially, I had allowed self doubt and the voice of "Jester" to take away my joy and my song (sigh, once again ... ) .

21.Thank you Father for second chances.
22. Thank you Father for speaking to me so clearly and lovingly.
23. Thank you Father for new friends in Christ to worship with.
24. Thank you Father for our new Worship Pastor.

I'm sorry Lord for what I made it - for its all about you!
I'll bring you more than a song!

Til Next Time,
Jacqueline