Two brothers both announcing that doctors have given them months to live; bodies full of cancer. A family mourns the death of their second son, in less than a year; a daughter receives a phone call that her dad may not wake from a fall on the ice; and then this morning I receive an email from a dear lady that the doctors prediction of her mom 'only having a few weeks left" came true; she died yesterday and service is on Friday. So many heavy hearts, so many lives mourning and questioning "Why Lord?"
We all know people who are hurting and we have all been hurt. Some are still hurting and some have overcome the last dark valley. And yet, will we say "I trust you Lord?"
Last night I had a wonderful evening of fun, food and worship; and despite feeling sick from the yearly winter cold, I was able to hear from Father.
We sang the song that makes me think the most "Blessed be your name".
I no longer sing words that I do not mean or cannot sing wholeheartedly. When verse two came, and the words say, Blessed be your name on the road marked with suffering .... I cant always sing that song.
I trust in you Lord, but I dont always want to be rejoicing about the hurts. And you know what? That is ok. Father is ok with me not pretending.
He does give and take away; He does heal some and not others; He does allow sin, sickness and suffering; AND, I will always trust in Him, but I cant always sing and rejoice about it. And, that's okay.
I come back to the three things that I hold dear to: My God is love; He is Faithful and He is in control. And when life seems hard, and friends are hurting; I can rest knowing He has it. God is still God and He is on the throne!
And, when my heart hurts, and the regrets fill my head - I choose truth. i choose life.
I will trust in Him. For He is worthy of all praise.
Til Next Time
Jacqueline
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