A Butterfly For Me

Early yesterday morning I decided to go outside and water my flowers (and to offer some assistance to keeping the lawn from completely dying through this dry spell). I had just came home from going to Curves for my weekly weigh in and I was discouraged that I had gained a couple pounds. I was frustrated with myself because I knew exactly why; and mostly the reasons were that I was not taking time to take care of me; I was not eating proper meals now that I am alone during the week (cooking for one person is no fun, and living off of raised support means not eating out everyday either.)

I was in abit of a mood as I watered and I was looking at how brown the lawn was looking. I was realizing that my grass seed wont grow, and the only thing that was growing was my water bill! I admit I was finding it hard at that moment to be thankful about anything.

As I continued to grump and inwardly complain, Father was reminding me that as long as I continue to seek acceptance by becoming thinner, this will continue to be a battle; and that food was not the enemy. He also once again reminded me that my acceptance is NOT dependant on me being thinner. I answered Him outloud, "Yes I know you accept me fat and all" and he simply responded with "but will you accept you if you dont lose any weight?" I dwelt further on that and realized that I had woken up that morning in a great mood (inspite of the heat), and it wasnt until I stepped on the scale and saw the numbers that my emotions took a nose dive.

I was just about finished watering and while thanking Father for His loving words I looked up and saw an absolutely beautiful yellow and black butterfly land in the middle of a dead patch of grass. It was completely stunning. It didnt take me long to realize that this butterfly was a gift for me. Father was reminding me of the new creation that I am now (2 Cor 5:17), and that while He HAS transformed me; He is also continuing to do so in a more deeper way. He has made me his beautiful butterfly!

My verse for this year has been "May the God of peace sanctify you ENTIRELY; spirit, soul AND body ... " I Thess 5:23. Father will continue HIS work. In the next verse we read that HE is faithful to do what He has started.

I trust something I shared today has touched you as well. That's all for now.

In Him

Jacqueline