If you have been following this blog, you know that I have taken the last several weeks to see deeper our Father's heart for me. Every step has not been joyful and exciting; and there has been somewhat of a struggle; but I did come to the place of being willing to have further heart surgery done where needed.
I came to the place of simply being held in His embrace, to have Him uncover some of the lies that I have yet believed; to feel His presence as I puttered around dealing with dandelions; and to just sit in the still of the night quietly singing to Him.
In the begining of this time, I started singing one simple song to get "my song" back. I started singing the simple song, (and yet the one with the most profound lyrics) - "Jesus Loves Me This I Know". What showed me that surgery was needed was when I couldn't even sing the first line without my eyes swelling up with tears.
I have not learned all there is to learn, and I am still on the journey of accepting ALL of me. BUT, I am in HIS embrace and I am learning what it means to develop further intimacy with the one who desires to be our most intimate best friend.
I never want to forget these last 6-8 weeks; for it has been a sacred time for me. Going forward, I will be making time for my "retreat days" alone with God. I am thankful for a place of employment and a boss who strongly encourages me to have that one day a month to simply be with Father.
Jesus is both the surgeon (a physician who specialized in surgery)and the healer. That is, He is the comfort pre-surgery, while in surgery and post-surgery. He is the ultimate healer and friend. What an empathetic priest and friend is He!
That's all for now,
Jacqueline
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