Even by the title of my blog, you can see how much of my identity has been wrapped up in being a Mom. God doesnt want that. He wants us to see and KNOW who we are in Him.
Yes, a role on this earth is to be mom... not a perfect one.. but to be a godly mom.
However, after events this week in our home, I have seen that I have been completely wrapped up in how people judge my parenting.
Something happened in our home, and my immediate internal responsse was embarrassement and shame. Well with Father there is NO condemnation for those that are in Christ Jesus. He has taken that shame away, and I can hold my head high, no matter what has happened in the life of my kids.
Yes itis normal to feel for everyone involved in tough situations. However, I am not responsible for the choices that my children make. I will love them, walk along side of them, but my "job" is not to protect them from consequences that come as a result.
Father, use this situation to bring glory to your name. Thank you that you are in control and that even in the midst of this, I know you are doing a work in me.
I want to be refined and Father dont stop until when you look at me, you see your image alone. Thank you for your love and understanding when my feelings are racing, and my thoughts are not clear. Thank you for sending friends to pray and family members to support. I pray that through this, that many will see your love and guidance and soverignty. In your most wonderful name, Amen
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Being a Mom in the Hard Times
In writing this, I would like to make it abundantly clear .. each day that my oldest gets older is a new adventure. I do not have all the answers, and the more I look at what is going on around me, I see that I really do not know anything. (to go back to settling disagreements between toddlers, to put them down for a two hour nap, to pick out their clothes .. ahhh today that would be just heavenly!)
Friends who have little ones, hold your babies tightly, do not feel guilty about rocking them to sleep, or not doing your housework because you are playing with your kids. The time goes so quickly, and for me, today is one of those days I would like to go back a few years and just hold my boys close, read that Dr Seus book one more time and encourage them to go outside and play in the dirt. The issues that come with teen boys is something that I certainly was not ready for. We had hit the stage where the tantrums had ceased, they are able to get theirselves dresses, bathed ( well when they do as adolescent boys) and are able to make their own lunches.. life had finally reached that point that everyone had told me would come .. the younger years are harder physically.. just wait ... (boy were they right!)
BUT this is the year of "Mom can I have a cell phone", "Mom I need a newer IPOD" and now we have entered, "Mom I need my SIN card so I can apply for a job" (of course this mom has no problem with her kids wanting to get jobs.. less cash I have to hand out!! :)
I love my kids, but it is a new stage and it is not easy. I woke up today, feeling stressed because of an issue with one of my boys, and I am trying so hard to see it from Father's perspective. He is in control and my job is not to have perfect kids.
I am to love them, show them Jesus, teach them (and sometimes with that comes discipline - which by the way gets harder and harder).
This will pass quickly and before I know it, my kids will be moving out and then I will be posting about how i hate it and how I would give anything to go back and have the teens home :) GRIN
Well, I should be going, gotta make sure their sister is not getting treated badly by the older brothers :)
That's all for now
Jacqueline
Friends who have little ones, hold your babies tightly, do not feel guilty about rocking them to sleep, or not doing your housework because you are playing with your kids. The time goes so quickly, and for me, today is one of those days I would like to go back a few years and just hold my boys close, read that Dr Seus book one more time and encourage them to go outside and play in the dirt. The issues that come with teen boys is something that I certainly was not ready for. We had hit the stage where the tantrums had ceased, they are able to get theirselves dresses, bathed ( well when they do as adolescent boys) and are able to make their own lunches.. life had finally reached that point that everyone had told me would come .. the younger years are harder physically.. just wait ... (boy were they right!)
BUT this is the year of "Mom can I have a cell phone", "Mom I need a newer IPOD" and now we have entered, "Mom I need my SIN card so I can apply for a job" (of course this mom has no problem with her kids wanting to get jobs.. less cash I have to hand out!! :)
I love my kids, but it is a new stage and it is not easy. I woke up today, feeling stressed because of an issue with one of my boys, and I am trying so hard to see it from Father's perspective. He is in control and my job is not to have perfect kids.
I am to love them, show them Jesus, teach them (and sometimes with that comes discipline - which by the way gets harder and harder).
This will pass quickly and before I know it, my kids will be moving out and then I will be posting about how i hate it and how I would give anything to go back and have the teens home :) GRIN
Well, I should be going, gotta make sure their sister is not getting treated badly by the older brothers :)
That's all for now
Jacqueline
Sunday, January 18, 2009
A New Semester ...
WOW I can hardly believe that a whole semester has come and gone and I have not even posted any sort of update.
It was an amazing semester. I learned alot about being back in school and Father continued His faithfulness in my life. He provided for me to attend school, and He has blessed me with some really neat people who are not part of my life.
The classes all went well, and I was pleased for the most part with my grades. School is much harder when you are juggling family, work and moving.. however I wouldnt trade it for anything. I have thoroughly enjoyed it.. even the parts that didnt "feel" so good.
I look forward to another semester of worship and hearing from Father.
I will write something again soon
For now
Jacqueline
It was an amazing semester. I learned alot about being back in school and Father continued His faithfulness in my life. He provided for me to attend school, and He has blessed me with some really neat people who are not part of my life.
The classes all went well, and I was pleased for the most part with my grades. School is much harder when you are juggling family, work and moving.. however I wouldnt trade it for anything. I have thoroughly enjoyed it.. even the parts that didnt "feel" so good.
I look forward to another semester of worship and hearing from Father.
I will write something again soon
For now
Jacqueline
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